Losing It... Losing Me.

I hate this feeling.

It is the sense of being disconnected from yourself and everything around you. Being a total robot on auto-pilot. Drifting through life.

I am out of control. I am just going through the motions. Doing what I need to survive. Not an excellent way to live.

Last year... I was connected. I was here. I was real. But I wasn't happy.

Now... I'm not. And still not happy.

I need something or someone to connect me back to myself. If I don't.. I am going disappear. Forever.

But who or what that is... I have not a single clue.





And that honestly scares me.





Currently listening:
Big Girls Don’t Cry
By Fergie
Release date: 16 July, 2007