Ladies and Gents, let's dispel some rumors here before I get in to another life update entry, shall we? No, I was never at any point pregnant. No, Jon never at any point paid for me to get abortions for these supposed pregnancies. Are we all on the same page now? Yeah. Awesome.
I don't typically respond to the shit I hear about me and this probably isn't the worst thing that is floating around in the halls back at KW or bouncing about in the old circles. But it has sort of just sat in my head for a while now and I realize it bugs the shit out of me. Mostly cause if that was true, no one has the right to tell others about something as traumatic as that. It is super personal and sort of a violation of privacy. The other reason is that i graduated nearly THREE years ago. Yes, THREE years ago. Crazy. I shouldn't be a reference within that context any longer, right? I can't imagine anyone who I was close with still at that place, so I don't really understand why it is coming out. That is all I have to say on that matter... Moving on.
Soooo I haven't talk a lick of how the semester for school is going or anything. So might as well delve a bit in to that now. I have something of a light course load at the moment which has been really rather convenient to getting things done. I was the Assistant Costume Designer for Charle Mee's Summertime which was at the Raisbeck space. It was an interesting learning process that taught me a lot about the expectations that the shop has and how some people (knowing these expectations) don't always meet them in the way that they need to. There were times that I felt like I had taken the reigns without needing to and tried to control my need to be dominant in a group. Which is a new thing by the way.
One thing I need to work on is speaking out in a large group of people and let my opinion be said. I have no issue doing so in a small group but tend to clam up in a bigger group which isn't a good thing if I want to be a designer.
P.S. I have this craving to post the following as my Facebook status for no particular reason at all: Dear sir.. yes, you sir and you too, madam. Fuck you. That is all.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Thinking.
I miss my friends.
The ones I had in High School.
It isn't like I don't have friends now. Cause I do.
I just miss the other ones. I didn't expect everyone to change so rapidly.
For everyone to fall away.
I think I miss everyone. Despite all the bad shit. I miss them.
Though I am not sure I would go back to have them again.
Certain people, most definitely. Others... I don't know.
The ones I had in High School.
It isn't like I don't have friends now. Cause I do.
I just miss the other ones. I didn't expect everyone to change so rapidly.
For everyone to fall away.
I think I miss everyone. Despite all the bad shit. I miss them.
Though I am not sure I would go back to have them again.
Certain people, most definitely. Others... I don't know.
Monday, August 30, 2010
The Aftermath of Macy's.
FINALLY DONE AT MACY'S!
Not that it was bad. It was an actually enjoyable experience for the most part. There was a few hitches there and here, but meh... I am beginning to realize that I am going to need a more flexible job while I am at school. I am going to see if I can find a barista position somewhere. There are enough Starbucks in town along with all the other coffee houses. There is an acting thing at the Pacific Science Center for the Harry Potter exhibition but I don't think the hours would work out. Plus my brit accent is a little shakey. I would have to practice for the next week, speaking strictly in an accent... Sooo I think I am gonna pass on that one. Would be so freaking cool though. I will be going to see this exbihit though! Damnit! Ha ha ha ha.
On another note, I need to start a workout regime. I meant to do it at the beginning of the summer.. but work and laziness happened. I need to sit down and create a calendar of everything that is happening this semester.... Blah. School is starting soon and I am not nearly ready. Just one more week of summer I believe.
Not that it was bad. It was an actually enjoyable experience for the most part. There was a few hitches there and here, but meh... I am beginning to realize that I am going to need a more flexible job while I am at school. I am going to see if I can find a barista position somewhere. There are enough Starbucks in town along with all the other coffee houses. There is an acting thing at the Pacific Science Center for the Harry Potter exhibition but I don't think the hours would work out. Plus my brit accent is a little shakey. I would have to practice for the next week, speaking strictly in an accent... Sooo I think I am gonna pass on that one. Would be so freaking cool though. I will be going to see this exbihit though! Damnit! Ha ha ha ha.
On another note, I need to start a workout regime. I meant to do it at the beginning of the summer.. but work and laziness happened. I need to sit down and create a calendar of everything that is happening this semester.... Blah. School is starting soon and I am not nearly ready. Just one more week of summer I believe.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
On This Summer.
It has been a mixed bag.
It really has.
I need a few hard drinks, a damn good cry and some one to listen.
It really has.
I need a few hard drinks, a damn good cry and some one to listen.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
On being mad.
Why isn't when you get really mad you think of the worse things that you can do to piss the other person off? Or to get back at them? Not that I have ever followed through on it, ever. It is just that my brain comes up with these ideas that are kind of truly terrible ideas. Of people to get a hold of or of things that I could do. Both of which lead easily to consequences that I don't want, but in anger... the instant gratification of getting back at the person that I am mad with is so incredibly tempting. :P
Not that I am mad. Just annoyed. Which still leads me to the same sort of thoughts. Stupid brain. Stop being stupid. Please.
Not that I am mad. Just annoyed. Which still leads me to the same sort of thoughts. Stupid brain. Stop being stupid. Please.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Toy Story 3
So here I sit with a kitten curled up on one arm and a slightly tired mind... thinking back to 15 years ago when a movie called Toy Story was released. I remember seeing the bright blue cloud wallpaper and Andy. His toys and the adventure that ensued after his birthday party. Toy Story 3 was released today and I realized how alike everyone's college journey is. Anyways....
Disney|Pixar's magic strikes again with this third (and last) installment of Toy Story. I don't wanna say too much because today was opening day. But all you need to know is this. It is easily as good if not better than the other two installments. The animation has the same feel but looks incredible. I really wanted to snug a certain over sized gray Japanese character that waddles around in the background of quite a few scenes. :D The end is beautiful, and made me want to cry. (Ok, ok... I cried. A lot.) I am not sure if it is because I grew up with these characters that there was a strong emotional attachment to them... Go see it. It is worth the full price of the ticket. The 2-D version was gorgeous, can't say anything for the 3-d though. Haven't seen it.
Just go!
Disney|Pixar's magic strikes again with this third (and last) installment of Toy Story. I don't wanna say too much because today was opening day. But all you need to know is this. It is easily as good if not better than the other two installments. The animation has the same feel but looks incredible. I really wanted to snug a certain over sized gray Japanese character that waddles around in the background of quite a few scenes. :D The end is beautiful, and made me want to cry. (Ok, ok... I cried. A lot.) I am not sure if it is because I grew up with these characters that there was a strong emotional attachment to them... Go see it. It is worth the full price of the ticket. The 2-D version was gorgeous, can't say anything for the 3-d though. Haven't seen it.
Just go!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Communication
Is lacking this weekend. Not sure if I ought to be concerned or angry that my darling boyfriend hasn't contacted me all weekend. I know he is moving and all but it doesn't mean he can't take five minutes and call me. :/
Friday, June 11, 2010
Insomnia....
I can't sleep tonight. I dunno why.
And it is also the first night it has been excessively noisy in the city. Go figure.
And it is also the first night it has been excessively noisy in the city. Go figure.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
The Best Laid Plans...
Don't always work out. So that is why I try not to make them. A thought for the moment.
Finally moved. It is strange. Kind of lonely. I haven't a day to myself really yet cause of work, going on a basically free date, and subsequent food poisoning. But now sitting here, I get this feeling of being the only person in the building. I only run in to a few other tenants on rare occasions. I might see some more tonight if I decide to do some laundry tonight like I ought to do. I miss my cat. I miss having people around that I know well even if we didn't talk all the time. It hasn't even been a week yet. I am not feeling homesick, I know what that feels like.
I meant to go to my parents' church one last time before I vamoosed off to the Emerald City like Dorothy. Maybe attempt to yank a few old walls down before tipping my hat good-bye. That sort of thing. Not to start anything. Only to leave something of a subtle reminder. Maybe I will drop by before classes start in the the fall. In that down time between when work ends and they start. I dunno. I still have that temptation to just send a hey or hi to the Chorus Girl. But I am not sure what would come of it nor am I sure that I want to know. The previous olive branch was taken, inspected then tossed over the trench-coated shoulder of the German with a guarded, defensive manner. More than I was expecting from it, but not what I had entirely wished for. Like I said before, if they don't want to talk, you can't really make them.
I started writing this with something else in mind, but now I have completely forgotten what it had been. Hmmm. Oh. In other, much less serious, news! I have rediscovered my love for fanfiction as nerdy as that sounds. I might even pick up working on my own original work that I started in like ninth grade, which was originally based on a sort of weird paranormal thing or at least that was the intention in my mind. After reading it again a few weeks ago, it is more Alice in Wonderland than anything. So I am going to go down that path with it and see what happens. Pretty sure I am going to make Wonderland something different than the Carroll version or the versions that I have seen of it. Might even pull in some Labyrinth influences if I can manage it.
I need to stop procrastinating and go start in on some laundry. I am so good at being distracted.
Finally moved. It is strange. Kind of lonely. I haven't a day to myself really yet cause of work, going on a basically free date, and subsequent food poisoning. But now sitting here, I get this feeling of being the only person in the building. I only run in to a few other tenants on rare occasions. I might see some more tonight if I decide to do some laundry tonight like I ought to do. I miss my cat. I miss having people around that I know well even if we didn't talk all the time. It hasn't even been a week yet. I am not feeling homesick, I know what that feels like.
I meant to go to my parents' church one last time before I vamoosed off to the Emerald City like Dorothy. Maybe attempt to yank a few old walls down before tipping my hat good-bye. That sort of thing. Not to start anything. Only to leave something of a subtle reminder. Maybe I will drop by before classes start in the the fall. In that down time between when work ends and they start. I dunno. I still have that temptation to just send a hey or hi to the Chorus Girl. But I am not sure what would come of it nor am I sure that I want to know. The previous olive branch was taken, inspected then tossed over the trench-coated shoulder of the German with a guarded, defensive manner. More than I was expecting from it, but not what I had entirely wished for. Like I said before, if they don't want to talk, you can't really make them.
I started writing this with something else in mind, but now I have completely forgotten what it had been. Hmmm. Oh. In other, much less serious, news! I have rediscovered my love for fanfiction as nerdy as that sounds. I might even pick up working on my own original work that I started in like ninth grade, which was originally based on a sort of weird paranormal thing or at least that was the intention in my mind. After reading it again a few weeks ago, it is more Alice in Wonderland than anything. So I am going to go down that path with it and see what happens. Pretty sure I am going to make Wonderland something different than the Carroll version or the versions that I have seen of it. Might even pull in some Labyrinth influences if I can manage it.
I need to stop procrastinating and go start in on some laundry. I am so good at being distracted.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Super Mario Galaxy 2!
We got Super Mario Galaxy 2! Which of course is a kick-ass wii game that demonstrates everything that can be done with the much criticized console. It is surprisingly just as good as the first installment if possibly be not better. The controls are easy to pick up and don't make you feel like a retard waggling the remote around. The spin function is still feels like magic and the new powerups are delightful. It looks great, plays great and is a ton of fun.
What isn't cute is watching my mom play.... It is a little like watching a drunken five year old drive one of those plastic power cars down the street. Makes me dizzy.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Worried...
I am worried there may be something terribly wrong with my kitten. She eats, I feed her at normal times everyday but she looks like she never eats. It scares me. There is something definitely wrong. But there isn't money to take her to the vet.... No good. :/ She is absolutely tiny... and I can feel her bones. :(
Friday, May 14, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Summertime.
SCHOOL IS OUT!
Finally. I thought I was going to die this last month from stress and not being able to really take care of myself properly. So I probably gained some weight and added more aliments to the list that I already have compiled. This summer I am planning to adjust the way that I treat myself in order to lose some weight. I have an ultimate goal of at least a 100 pound to shed. This summer I am just looking for 20 pounds at the most and seeing how well that i can keep it off during the school year. I need to start walking and eating right. Thinking about going veggie, but I do like burgers soo much. And seafood. I dunno.
My Mother's Tea was too stressful and wasn't the end result that I wanted. So next year is going to be easier. I am thinking Vikings or something really, really fun that will look good on my linebacker shape. Yeah... that is about it.
Finally. I thought I was going to die this last month from stress and not being able to really take care of myself properly. So I probably gained some weight and added more aliments to the list that I already have compiled. This summer I am planning to adjust the way that I treat myself in order to lose some weight. I have an ultimate goal of at least a 100 pound to shed. This summer I am just looking for 20 pounds at the most and seeing how well that i can keep it off during the school year. I need to start walking and eating right. Thinking about going veggie, but I do like burgers soo much. And seafood. I dunno.
My Mother's Tea was too stressful and wasn't the end result that I wanted. So next year is going to be easier. I am thinking Vikings or something really, really fun that will look good on my linebacker shape. Yeah... that is about it.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
For the summer, for the summer...
SO! Kind of big news/a test to see who reads this crazy rant of a blog.. ready for it?
I AM MOVING OUT! Finally. It is a huge step, but I am managing to do it in a tiny baby step way. CCoA has opened their dorms for summer residency and I am going to be moving in on June 1st, I believe. It will be a new experience for me. Yes, there are rules and such but it is going to be so much different from living with my family. Hopefully less stressful. I also will be living there for the next academic year. After that, I am planning on finding an apartment with someone if all goes well. It sort of depends on if I can find a good enough internship here in Washington. I may have to go out of state for it, which to be honest I am not sure how I feel about that.
Moving to Seattle also means being able to get a job which I am doing a rather rigorous job hunt tomorrow on foot. I have filled out about eight applications already but it can't hurt to look for about ten more, right? I am going to look at some retail types places and such. It is going to be such a crazy transition. :P
Other news, my costume is coming along slowly... And by slowly, not at all. I have my chemise done and my corset was cut out. I am sewing on it slowly. :/ I have about three weeks left to finish this beast. I am not sure that it is going to happen. :\ Which makes me really sad. All of my projects are consuming my life and it just sucks so much. If i think about it, there isn't a lot but it is the fact that I have to time to do it in.
My emo posts are just... There are parts of my past that are kind of left wide open that I have to deal with. Like now. Which I am going to do now.
I AM MOVING OUT! Finally. It is a huge step, but I am managing to do it in a tiny baby step way. CCoA has opened their dorms for summer residency and I am going to be moving in on June 1st, I believe. It will be a new experience for me. Yes, there are rules and such but it is going to be so much different from living with my family. Hopefully less stressful. I also will be living there for the next academic year. After that, I am planning on finding an apartment with someone if all goes well. It sort of depends on if I can find a good enough internship here in Washington. I may have to go out of state for it, which to be honest I am not sure how I feel about that.
Moving to Seattle also means being able to get a job which I am doing a rather rigorous job hunt tomorrow on foot. I have filled out about eight applications already but it can't hurt to look for about ten more, right? I am going to look at some retail types places and such. It is going to be such a crazy transition. :P
Other news, my costume is coming along slowly... And by slowly, not at all. I have my chemise done and my corset was cut out. I am sewing on it slowly. :/ I have about three weeks left to finish this beast. I am not sure that it is going to happen. :\ Which makes me really sad. All of my projects are consuming my life and it just sucks so much. If i think about it, there isn't a lot but it is the fact that I have to time to do it in.
My emo posts are just... There are parts of my past that are kind of left wide open that I have to deal with. Like now. Which I am going to do now.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
A Letter
How do I even start to write? I know what I need to say, but how do I even begin to say it? It is probably not even worth doing at this point...
Friday, March 26, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
In a cage...
It feels like everything is so pent up inside me.
This is more frustrating than it ought to be.
The walls are going to burst soon,
letting out all the emotion like a monsoon.
So... I need someone to talk to. Or just an hour to rant to someone. My fears and doubts are rising, becoming overwhelming. My body is suffering from the stress it can not bear.
This is more frustrating than it ought to be.
The walls are going to burst soon,
letting out all the emotion like a monsoon.
So... I need someone to talk to. Or just an hour to rant to someone. My fears and doubts are rising, becoming overwhelming. My body is suffering from the stress it can not bear.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
On trying and just flat-out failing....
So.. I try to do stuff on my own so that I don't have to inconvenience anyone but somehow I always end up with someone incredibly pissed off at me. Kind of tired of it.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
A Life Update
Sooo... I suppose I should update my blog quickly. School is going well, nothing really to complain about there. Me and a few other Costume Designers are doing this historical Disney princess project. Here is my sketch and idea for Belle.
It is a lot of work. I am currently going to start in on the chemise, corset and petticoat. I am aiming to get that all done over Spring Break as well as start work on the bodice of the gown. I feel like that is the part that is going to be hell, but if it all works out.. It could be really gorgeous. The entire thing has to be finished by early May so I have two months to bust this out among all the other things I have to do. Pray for me. Haha. Seriously though...
Otherwise, I had a run in with someone from my past on the bus a few weeks back. He asked me a question, that to be honest, I expected the instant that he sat near me. I responded in my typical "I-am-trying-really-to-be-nice" fashion and ended up saying that I would contact an certain individual. Now my issue is this, I feel bad for saying that I would even though I have no intention of doing so. Part of me feels like I should send something even if it is just "I don't give a flying eff" but I am not sure how to go about composing something such as this in a way that won't start up all that unwanted/unneeded drama once again. At the moment, all I can think to do is act if that encounter had never happened and just hope that another one doesn't occur on the bus. That course of action requires me to be on top of my shit in the morning though, which is so difficult when I have a comfy bed. Oh well.
It is a lot of work. I am currently going to start in on the chemise, corset and petticoat. I am aiming to get that all done over Spring Break as well as start work on the bodice of the gown. I feel like that is the part that is going to be hell, but if it all works out.. It could be really gorgeous. The entire thing has to be finished by early May so I have two months to bust this out among all the other things I have to do. Pray for me. Haha. Seriously though...
Otherwise, I had a run in with someone from my past on the bus a few weeks back. He asked me a question, that to be honest, I expected the instant that he sat near me. I responded in my typical "I-am-trying-really-to-be-nice" fashion and ended up saying that I would contact an certain individual. Now my issue is this, I feel bad for saying that I would even though I have no intention of doing so. Part of me feels like I should send something even if it is just "I don't give a flying eff" but I am not sure how to go about composing something such as this in a way that won't start up all that unwanted/unneeded drama once again. At the moment, all I can think to do is act if that encounter had never happened and just hope that another one doesn't occur on the bus. That course of action requires me to be on top of my shit in the morning though, which is so difficult when I have a comfy bed. Oh well.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Ever get that werid feeling?
That something you just read was weirdly directed at you? Totally just happened.
More on this later.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
2010: A Whole Year...
I meant to post something on New Years Eve, but that didn't happen... Heh. Lets rewind back to December! I didn't get the job I was hopeing for. In fact I ended up not getting a job at all. Which really sucks in so many fraking ways. I wasn't able to get anything for Jon for his birthday or Christmas making me the lamest girlfriend ever. Especially after he got me this amazing art with a little wooden geasture model in it. Oh and a box of Godiva chocolates and a Godiva Holiday bear. And I am pretty sure there was something else but now I can't remember what it was. Oh oh oh! I looked up and remembered what it was. A "Goverment Issue" Zombie Survival Guide. How in the world could I forget about that one. It has some gore-y pictures that accompany the survival tips and they are sort of crazy. Don't think I am gonna put it up where I can see it from my bed. Really creepy. He says that not getting a present or two from me was ok, and that being with me is perfectly more than enough for him. I still feel like a bad girlfriend though. Maybe I can make it up to him on Valentine's Day with some chocolate and some strawberry cheesecake. While on the subject of Christmas, mine was surprisingly calm. Hung out at the house, ate a ton of food that I shouldn't have, opened a few gifts. Got an xbox and a year of live but where the xbox hangs out there is no way to connect it to the internet sooo we has to buy one of the router things for it. Not sure how it attaches on there, but I have an xbox. That is all that matters.
Here are some semester updates that make me super excited about life in general at the moment! I finally got my grades which I was really nervous about getting. There was nearly a two week period that I was out doing to a really severe stomach/cholera/flu thing so I had to play a good amount of catch up. I also had this fear looming over my shoulder that I was going to get a C in Theater History because I didn't talk as often as I was required to. My conference with my professor after the class was finished did not inspire hope that I would do better than a C. He made me promise that me and him would have an understanding that I would try to communicate my thoughts to him.. This man is very smart and I have great respect for the knowlegde he has. I just do not enjoy the class, it sort of goes over my head sometimes which worries me. Anyways... Like I said, I got my grades. Finally. The list looks a little something like this ---->
- Yoga: A- (wasn't expecting that, but meh. Probably could have talked more about the book that I avoided reading)
- Profiles of Disease: B+ (I thought I was going to fail this class so hard because I missed quite a few. And the class was so vague with no assignments..)
- Drawing For Performance Production: A (YEAH, and all for not really trying.)
- Lighting Fundamentals: B (Holy Jesus was this one a surprise. My head got so jumbled at the end of the final plot. I guess there were missed lights and such.)
-Production Lab III: B+ (That was kind of a WTF... but then again... I didn't really do much so.. there is that.)
- Theater History: B- (I think I scared the crap out of my folks when I squeaked about this one. Was not expecting it and was so happy to see a B. A low one, but a B)
- Intro to Production Design 3-D: A (This one was a given. That class is fairly easy but probably the best hours spent at CCoA).
With no Cs in the mix this time around, it means that my career GPA went up. Like a point or two, but it did go up. So I am now sitting at a 3.3150. Which is fairly decent. Not the best in the world, but I am happy for now. Now is the time to troll for scholarship which are so far a pain in the ass to find. I need to become another race or become gay. Neither of which I am really willing to do. hopefully I can find a few good ones off the school's list. I need money. Ugh. Maybe I should start vlogging like Meekakitty on Youtube (look up her, she is kind of nerdy and goofy :) )... but then again, I am not a spazzy, cute red head. Oh well. AH! While I am on the subject of school, I should mention that I got all of the classes I wanted with the exception of one. Scenic Painting, which I was kind of depending on to fill my Thursday so I am not going in for just one classes. I got bumped out of the classes because there were older students with few semesters left who needed to take the class. Now I just have my 20th Century Thinkers class on that day. Balls. Two hour commute for just an hour class and then two hours back. I need to get an apartment or slum it up in the dorms next year or get a car/license. Two of which require that I get an actual job... Not really a choice option for me. I need to fill out the RA application that picked off a freshman. It is due on the 28th and I totally meant to work on it all break. FML. Maybe I can bust it out this week. Otherwise, I will shelling out the extra $3000 a semester to share a room with another CCoA Student.... I need to get that RA position.
On to another subject that isn't college, Umm.. Jon was in a production of High School Musical over the break that was put on through Village Theatre's Kid Stage. Village is in Issaquah and it is a great company or so I have heard. I actually haven't seen a show there yet. Kind of a crime really. He was Coach Bolton and sang back-up for several songs off stage. I didn't get to go see this show because I had no $$$ which really made me upset. Not seeing him perform.... I heard from a few people that he did a really good job in the role. One parent thought that Jon was a parent in real life. Hahaha. Funny audience member. Next up is being The Boss in SideShow with ArtsWest in the summer. He did just audition for another role with a group out of Kameno Island though. They are doing The King and I and want him for the role of The Kralahome. Or at least that is the part he auditioned for. There was talk about getting him an acting coach to help him not seem like an 19 year old trying to be a 36 year old Siamese man. This production is slated to take place before SideShow, so it could keep him busy. I just want him to make sure to stay focused on school and doing a good job at work. I am extremely proud of him though for all of these shows that he is taking part in. Jon is very, very talented and very charismatic. He is going to do very well as an actor. Speaking of that, I never talked about how Rent went. Well.. It was amazing. A-effin-mazing. I cried during I'll Cover You (reprise), both times that I saw the show. There were a few cast members that didn't quite in to the atmosphere of the ensemble. Also there were a few lead who were much weaker than the rest, detracting from the impact of the show. Collins and Angel (unintentionally) stole the show everytime they walked on stage. There was something so real and tangible about their relationship as a couple. Rent: School Edition was easily one of the best young cast shows that I have seen so far.
How am I personally doing outside of the amazing relationship? Kind of badly actually. I feel really distant from everyone including my family. I am not sure if that is just a part of growing up or what. But I don't feel connected to anyone anymore. It is as if they are all slipping away slowly. Everyone seems to have something much better to do than to hanging around with me. Just sort of sucks. I don't mean to whine but I set up a little movie gathering so I could see people for the first time in a long time.... No one showed up. As that has NEVER happened before, I actually took it pretty personally. I don't think I have ever been that miserable and upset before. Include the one break-up I have had. (That was solved with spending all of New Year's Eve and Day with Jon and his family). Meh, that is depressing and no one wants to read that, so sorry about that. I think about it sometimes, leading me to be rather sad. Jon is increasingly becoming the closest friend that I have and that isn't a terrible thing. It is actually awesome to have someone that I can tell everything (no matter what it is) and have them still love me more than before..
P.S: my power keeps flickering awkwardly. I do not like that at all. I think it is time to head for the bed. <3
Here are some semester updates that make me super excited about life in general at the moment! I finally got my grades which I was really nervous about getting. There was nearly a two week period that I was out doing to a really severe stomach/cholera/flu thing so I had to play a good amount of catch up. I also had this fear looming over my shoulder that I was going to get a C in Theater History because I didn't talk as often as I was required to. My conference with my professor after the class was finished did not inspire hope that I would do better than a C. He made me promise that me and him would have an understanding that I would try to communicate my thoughts to him.. This man is very smart and I have great respect for the knowlegde he has. I just do not enjoy the class, it sort of goes over my head sometimes which worries me. Anyways... Like I said, I got my grades. Finally. The list looks a little something like this ---->
- Yoga: A- (wasn't expecting that, but meh. Probably could have talked more about the book that I avoided reading)
- Profiles of Disease: B+ (I thought I was going to fail this class so hard because I missed quite a few. And the class was so vague with no assignments..)
- Drawing For Performance Production: A (YEAH, and all for not really trying.)
- Lighting Fundamentals: B (Holy Jesus was this one a surprise. My head got so jumbled at the end of the final plot. I guess there were missed lights and such.)
-Production Lab III: B+ (That was kind of a WTF... but then again... I didn't really do much so.. there is that.)
- Theater History: B- (I think I scared the crap out of my folks when I squeaked about this one. Was not expecting it and was so happy to see a B. A low one, but a B)
- Intro to Production Design 3-D: A (This one was a given. That class is fairly easy but probably the best hours spent at CCoA).
With no Cs in the mix this time around, it means that my career GPA went up. Like a point or two, but it did go up. So I am now sitting at a 3.3150. Which is fairly decent. Not the best in the world, but I am happy for now. Now is the time to troll for scholarship which are so far a pain in the ass to find. I need to become another race or become gay. Neither of which I am really willing to do. hopefully I can find a few good ones off the school's list. I need money. Ugh. Maybe I should start vlogging like Meekakitty on Youtube (look up her, she is kind of nerdy and goofy :) )... but then again, I am not a spazzy, cute red head. Oh well. AH! While I am on the subject of school, I should mention that I got all of the classes I wanted with the exception of one. Scenic Painting, which I was kind of depending on to fill my Thursday so I am not going in for just one classes. I got bumped out of the classes because there were older students with few semesters left who needed to take the class. Now I just have my 20th Century Thinkers class on that day. Balls. Two hour commute for just an hour class and then two hours back. I need to get an apartment or slum it up in the dorms next year or get a car/license. Two of which require that I get an actual job... Not really a choice option for me. I need to fill out the RA application that picked off a freshman. It is due on the 28th and I totally meant to work on it all break. FML. Maybe I can bust it out this week. Otherwise, I will shelling out the extra $3000 a semester to share a room with another CCoA Student.... I need to get that RA position.
On to another subject that isn't college, Umm.. Jon was in a production of High School Musical over the break that was put on through Village Theatre's Kid Stage. Village is in Issaquah and it is a great company or so I have heard. I actually haven't seen a show there yet. Kind of a crime really. He was Coach Bolton and sang back-up for several songs off stage. I didn't get to go see this show because I had no $$$ which really made me upset. Not seeing him perform.... I heard from a few people that he did a really good job in the role. One parent thought that Jon was a parent in real life. Hahaha. Funny audience member. Next up is being The Boss in SideShow with ArtsWest in the summer. He did just audition for another role with a group out of Kameno Island though. They are doing The King and I and want him for the role of The Kralahome. Or at least that is the part he auditioned for. There was talk about getting him an acting coach to help him not seem like an 19 year old trying to be a 36 year old Siamese man. This production is slated to take place before SideShow, so it could keep him busy. I just want him to make sure to stay focused on school and doing a good job at work. I am extremely proud of him though for all of these shows that he is taking part in. Jon is very, very talented and very charismatic. He is going to do very well as an actor. Speaking of that, I never talked about how Rent went. Well.. It was amazing. A-effin-mazing. I cried during I'll Cover You (reprise), both times that I saw the show. There were a few cast members that didn't quite in to the atmosphere of the ensemble. Also there were a few lead who were much weaker than the rest, detracting from the impact of the show. Collins and Angel (unintentionally) stole the show everytime they walked on stage. There was something so real and tangible about their relationship as a couple. Rent: School Edition was easily one of the best young cast shows that I have seen so far.
How am I personally doing outside of the amazing relationship? Kind of badly actually. I feel really distant from everyone including my family. I am not sure if that is just a part of growing up or what. But I don't feel connected to anyone anymore. It is as if they are all slipping away slowly. Everyone seems to have something much better to do than to hanging around with me. Just sort of sucks. I don't mean to whine but I set up a little movie gathering so I could see people for the first time in a long time.... No one showed up. As that has NEVER happened before, I actually took it pretty personally. I don't think I have ever been that miserable and upset before. Include the one break-up I have had. (That was solved with spending all of New Year's Eve and Day with Jon and his family). Meh, that is depressing and no one wants to read that, so sorry about that. I think about it sometimes, leading me to be rather sad. Jon is increasingly becoming the closest friend that I have and that isn't a terrible thing. It is actually awesome to have someone that I can tell everything (no matter what it is) and have them still love me more than before..
P.S: my power keeps flickering awkwardly. I do not like that at all. I think it is time to head for the bed. <3
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