Sunday, August 26, 2007

What The Hell? You have to be joking me...

Saw IV?

I am so not amused. Looking through lists of movies to be appearing soon in movie theaters. What should I find? Freaking Saw Four? To be honest, the first three were completely unneeded hours of films. This is what the plot is said to be...

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"Jigsaw and his apprentice Amanda are dead. Now, upon the news of Detective Kerry's murder, two seasoned FBI profilers, Agent Strahm and Agent Perez, arrive in the terrified community to assist the veteran Detective Hoffman in sifting through Jigsaw's latest grizzly remains and piecing together the puzzle. However, when SWAT Commander Rigg is abducted and thrust into a game, the last officer untouched by Jigsaw has but ninety minutes to overcome a series of demented traps and save an old friend or face the deadly consequences."

Isn't this pretty much all the same thing as the others?

Currently watching:
Mel Gibson’s Apocalypto (Widescreen Edition)
Release date: 22 May, 2007

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Christians are the worst kind of people...

Now, before I get my head chewed off. Let me explain what I mean when I say that we Christians are the worst kind of people at times. We are the biggest hypocrites and I can understand why many refuse to go to chruch.

More and more I am finding that many of my fellow Christians have a extremely difficult time live the life path that Jesus laid out for us. He never said it was going to be easy, but many just go to church cause... well, their parents go or went. It had become this social thing in which I find myself tired of. Here are some reasons...

He said turn the other cheek when you are hit; we claw and rip each other apart in revenage for sometimes the smallest of things.

He said be as brothers and sisters, accepting all; even in the church, we find cliques and groups who struggle for power. Alienating each other.

He said make believers of all nations, baptizing them in his name; we turn away or look down on people who don't look, act or think like us.

He said all of these things and more so that we may be his childern in a world that we do not belong to.

Jason Harper, a speaker at the LCMS National Youth Gathering in Orlando, said this.. "The church has this conception that to be a part of the church, we must behave, believe, then belong. NO! Jesus meant it to be as such. First, you belong, then you behave... and finally you become". Mr. Harper puts it so well. I see it alot at church. It makes me sometimes not want to go, but I have to work past that if I ever expect it to get any better.

Now time for some personal thought that has been floating around my brain since we landed back home.

I belonged to Peace Lutheran Church. I'm not ashamed to admit that I have struggle with my faith ever since I started going. I went cause I wanted to make new friends. Not because my parents made me or I wanted to worship. I was looking for some people to hang out with cause at the time... I didn't have very many friends. I have thought that all this time... I would never be good enough for him.

But now.



I belong to Jesus, not to the church... for the world in its ways has corrupted it.



I belong only to my savior, the one who the Romans beat and murdered. I'm started to behave more like how he wants me to. I have turn my cheek so many times in the past few days, despite wanting to lash out. No longer am I so concerned with finding the love of my life in HIGH SCHOOL. Christine, Jennise, Kayla, the entire Greasepaint Cast, and those who I met in Florida showed me something.

Friends supply all the love that I need I will ever need.

Not only them but my family. I am getting along with my parents quite well. My brothers... that is going to take sometime and so patience on my part, but I know before I leave... We will be friends again. Me and my mom don't argue any more. I understand where she comes from, why she is the way she is... and I love her all the more for it. I know that I don't say it enough but she has been and always will be my closest friend. My dad is my buddy. I'm his little girl. We are working on our relationship as a father and daughter can.

I know there are some out there who think that I am in no way a christian, and use it as a mask. I ask them to forgive me for what ever I have done to them to make them believe I deserve to burn in hell. I am truly sorry and regret that you have come to think this about me. I ask them as fellow Christians, as brothers and sisters in Christ, to let go of the hurt and move on.

Most people tell me I am one of the nicest people they ever met. I've been told by friends that I hace this amazing ability to waltz into a room and instantly become the life of the party. Lately, a lot of things weighed me down. Stopped me from being that happy, bubbly young woman who had a burning passion to help others in need.

No more.

I'm not going to let the things of the world to do that to me.

I know I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

I know God has a plan for my life. Just need to let is happen.

I want to travel the world, be it with the clothes in a backpack and a bible in one hand. Maybe five.

I am beautiful, strong, and loved beyond all imagination

And no one can tell me otherwise.

Currently reading:
NIV Holy Bible, Textbook Edition
By Zondervan
Release date: 01 July, 1984